i feel sometimes like my body and i are two separate beings
often in disagreement with one another
pain roots itself so deeply
invades my body
stretches out and overtakes my skeleton
it becomes so familiar
some days i’m not sure where it stops and i begin
i want to be social and stay up late
but my body is exhausted for seemingly no reason
it needs me to rest
i want to be young and carefree
but my body screams that it cannot handle the strain
it begs me to slow down
i want to be independent
but my body humbles me by setting unreasonable limitations
it pleads with me to ask for help
i want to cross the finish line
but my body retaliates by resenting me for days
it implores me to never do it again
-meeting hostility in the shape of my own body